Putting thoughts to the screen

Being halfway through a bottle of wine always seems to make me a little bit deeper. Deeper in shit or deeper into my thoughts is a subject of debate. Its also possible that shit and my thoughts are more or less the same thing, so maybe its not really a debate at all. Drinking by myself is something I used to give people crap for, and I suppose this is the point where I finally understand what its all about.

If you combine that with the fact that nobody will read this for a long time,  it makes me want to write down everything I'm thinking right now.

But what am I thinking?

Actually its a lot of things:

• Should I quit my job because its unsatisfying?
• What would I do if I did actually quit my job?
• Is it actually a new start I'm looking for?
• I could actually have a new start if I just stayed, since everyone else is moving on
• Parts of the reason why I wanted to leave in the first place have gone away
• I need new friends
• Maybe I should stop thinking too much
• Maybe I should move out
• I need to go for a run
• Phil Collins is classic
• You can't hurry love, you'll just have to wait

OK so that last part was inspired by what I'm listening to.

Maybe I should really just go for what I want more often, and stop just fucking around.